im a wanter

just walk out the front door, leave with him and let me be
let me collapse on to the floor, i'll stay down with the dust and mold
and i'll pour out my guts through my eyes and i'll let them creep out on to this chinese rug

last night i stripped out my teeth, because they were never what you wanted
you could never wear me like you wanted

maybe if i set myself on fire on your front yard
would you care then? would i look better then?

i guess i'll drink bottles of alcohol and swallow handfuls of those little white pills
to make myself explode

like empty beaches that stretch for miles i'll scream and no one will hear
and i'll perfect, i'll be beautiful, and i won't be me.